Songs Unsung - Questions.

You're breaking the emptiness
Showering me with the sweetness
I'll get by tonight and I will be with you
I'll be right here but will you see me?
I'll stand by you til you do, til you do..

So many questions
Despite the fact that you want me too
Is there another reason
For me to doubt that truth
Would you hold on to me if I start to let go?
Would you hang on?

I found my you
I saw an angel from the moment you came in
Walked in like a heroine
To the rescue, you're making me fall for you

So many questions
I said I love you but I never heard you say
I love you too (I want you to kill me softly)
And now I go
Trying to sing this song for you
Would you hear me tonight if I cried my heart out?
Would you come to me?

And Still I.. Still I Walk Lost

Sometimes I just have to let go of the things that matter most and take my addictions with me, inside the emptiness I loathe. The prison cell where I am the only one who breathes and nicotine is the only oxygen I need. Then I walk the lines of hate, the way intoxicated men do, and start stumbling. Should I see your feet when I awake, i'd rather not awake at all..

I sought to end this last time, if I kept count it would be the nth last time last night, and yet I'm about to tell myself for the last time again tonight. I want to drown myself, maybe run head-on against an oncoming bus, or throw myself a thousand feet from the air to the concrete floor. Should I run wild through the streets with a razor and slicing everyone I meet, beat random people up asking for forgiveness as blood squirts, start the engine of my Mazda 323 and ram policemen standing by their checkpoints, or continue this piece of shit no one would bother reading?

I can't believe frying can be fucking healthy. The same way I can't believe in hopes and wishes. The same way I can't believe I'm still writing. The same way I don't believe she loves me.

I wish stars would fall and the moon would hide, I hope they make thunder strike me..
I want to stay trapped inside, I need this massive emptiness to kill me~

Raptures and Addiction

I needed something like gin but couldn't find any
So I took some gas and mixed it with strawberry..
It tasted so sweet but felt so wrong
And I knew I was lying all along..

I made choices I knew i'd regret
And I even tried so hard to forget..
But those moments have bitterly turned to memories
Small bits of romance dying beneath hazy sceneries..

I felt the day come crashing down
It burned the love and sparked the frown..
Fighting tears that don't even try to fall
Reaching my smile with a fading call..

And I chose to let these things go
As if they weren't the reason for sorrow..
Nor had I even believed they really were
A part of the emptiness wherein I wander..

One Thirty

How come the skies know how to cry when I can't even shed a tear..

I'm thinking of things that seem so far off, the only sparkling star tonight tells me that I should get some sleep. Girl, I'm thinking about you, I'm hoping I'm on your mind, these things are just too small for us to even feel it.. but I still do and I wish you feel the same way too. I'm still too scared to throw these words at you, that I may never see those eyes shine the way they do nor would I find those lips of yours smiling at me..
Still, I find myself inches away from telling you what's on my dreaded mind that I hate the fact that you easily take my breath away and make me lose the words I want to say..
You got me like no one ever had, a thousand days too early and yet I'm the only smiling motherfucker eager to shout your name at the ears of someone I loved before you. And I know it sounds rude and pathetic, but what can I do?

Two cups of coffee down and I'm waiting for your beep, waiting for my phone to vibrate, wanting to see your name, needing to read your message.. so send me asleep and put this aching heart to rest, my dear, for I miss you even after just a few hours since we last saw each other and I love you.. oh, how I love only you.

Walking down the hall, your hair on fire
With strands dancing under the afternoon sun
That surges through my soul with a burning desire;
The passionate emotion for you, my only one.